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Saturday, January 30, 2010
Flag day with Shakinah was AWESOME:D I really thought it was going to be a boring day, just asking for donations, but I was totally wrong. Met up with Shasha in the morning, then headed to school to collect the tins. Our first destination was Bishan. We got quite a huge some of money there. Bishan residents are all generous, that includes me :P After spending some time at Bishan, we Mrt-ed down to Yishun. Hahaha! Sanggup sia. It's so crowded there, but the people are stingy. We did get some money, but most of them didn't want to donate. Worst still, when I asked them nicely, they ignored me. But the funny thing was, we were not suppose to go in the shopping mall. Shasha, being the clever one, went to this person and asked him if he wanted to donate some money. When he turned to face her, he was actually the security guard. And because of that, we were told to leave the mall. Thanks, Shakinah -.- Mrt-ed back to AMK, went to eat and went back to school. Syafiq walked with us halfway, and he went somewhere else :) Anyways, the both of us got our hearts broken a lot of times today. We got rejected :( But, it was a great experience, but really tiring. My leg hurts again. Shakinah: "Would you like to donate? .... Thank you, Thank you. May God bless you." =.=' Btw, the donation tin, it says "CCWA" (: Going to sleep :) Labels: Flag Day with Shasha Friday, January 29, 2010
Do you ever think of me, even if you love her? I really want to know. Wednesday, January 27, 2010 Today has been quite a great day. PE was freaking tiring that my legs are aching right now :( Anyways, slacked a bit in school, did some Social Studies work, then laughed all the way with whoever was at the canteen just now. Met James at Junction 8, and walked back home. Thanks James, for accompanying me and yeah, great hairstyle. Btw, about that tattoo you just got, I still want to know who you're actually referring to :P I've got lots of homework to complete, and have yet to submit my POA homework. Yikes. Will be studying the whole night tonight. I feel like laughing right now, but I'm just too tired to laugh. Get it? I don't want to go to this Saturday's flag day. I don't feel like going. I can't believe this, but I can't wait for remedials to start next week. Seriously, I can't. :) Thursday, January 21, 2010 "I'm a girl trying to hide my tears. I'm a friend trying to fake a smile. I'm a sister who wants to help. I'm a daughter trying to change the world. I'm the ex trying not to care. I'm just the girl who's trying to live her life." i'm not suppose to love you. Wednesday, January 20, 2010 Mohammad Amirul Bin Ahmad 1990-2010 I'm gonna miss you, Abang :( I'm sorry for everything. May he rest in peace. School has been okay, I guess. But the only weird thing is that, why am I communicating that much with him? It's weird, but I'm cool with it. Anyway, nothing much happened today. Just feeling very (100x) tired. PE today was fun-ny! Hahas. Social Studies test was okay. Manage to complete everything :) Waited for Raudhah to finish her re-test after school today, then went back home. Suppeeerrrr tired, and I want to study. I'm so confused with myself these few days. I really want to hit my head real hard on the wall. Probably meeting up with Lisa tomorrow. To "niduf", It's wrong for me to like you. Cause my friends hate it when I say that I like you back. You're not a nice guy. Everybody knows it, even me. So, I'm gonna regard as a friend, not more than that. Just in case I'm not updating tomorrow, Happy 2 months, Mat :) I know you won't be reading this, but on this day, I want to remember all the memories we shared together. 211109 :D Friday, January 15, 2010 Dear God, please give Amirul the strength to make it through. He's a strong guy, I know. Though I can't visit you, I'll be there for you and I'll pray for you. But, please hold on. You're like a brother, father and bestfriend to me, I can't bear to lose that. Please, stay strong, for me at least. I can't think of anything else right now. I'm wondering, how am I going to face his family when I see them? But, the most important thing in my mind now is Amirul. All I want to do now, is kill those Matreps. They hurt lots of people already. Me, Mat then now Amirul, who's fighting for his life. I hope that you guys enter jail and rot in there. You ruined everything. I miss Mat :( Though we're in two different world now, you're still my Boyfriend. Hanna Syg Mat (: 211109<3 She was given the world So much that she couldn't see And she needed someone To show her who she could be And she tried to survive Wearing her heart on her sleeve But I needed you to believe You had your dreams, I had mine You had your fears, I was fine It showed me what I couldn't find When two different worlds collide And she tried to survive Living her life on her own Always afraid of the throne But you've given me strength to find hope She was scared, unprepared And lost in the dark, falling apart This is what happens when two worlds collide Labels: Two different World Collide Wednesday, January 13, 2010 Finally, I'm posting a proper blog post (: I'm happy, but then someone just had to ruin everything. Anyway, school was GREAT today. Lots of unexpected things happened. Good ones, not-so-good ones. I don't know, but I felt like I'm being social today. Talked to some people which I never thought I will, and that's crazy, if you understand what I'm tryin to say. After school, slacked at canteen, went Mac and head home. I swear, it's NOT safe for me to go out of the house by myself. But in the situation that's currently happening, I don't care if anything happens to me, cause there's other important stuff that's in my head right now. So, to the Matreps out there who's been trying so hard to find me, I surrender. Just do what you want :( Sighs. Just a lil' note: In a relationship, both the guy and the girl have their own rights. No point if the girl keep standing up for the guy, until she lose all her rights. Be with someone who's willing to share his/her love with you. The one that's worthy is the one who doesn't make you cry. You have to be prepared to handle all this if you want to be in a relationship. It's not fair if the guy keep controlling the girl, but then that guy can do whatever he wants, including texting he's ex-girlfriend. In times like this, the girl has to fight back. So, please. She has cooperated with you, but why can't you? Think about it, okay? If not, I swear you're making a huge mistake, my friend. A note to NIDUF (try guessing who i'm talking about :P ) : I'm not jealous of you. Why would I be? It has been two years, okay. I don't feel anything towards you anymore. So, no point in trying to make me jealous of "purposely" walking in front of me with your hands intertwined with her. I can't be bothered with it, and it's annoying =.=" Tuesday, January 12, 2010 1095 days has passed (: ku masih setia menunggu setia menanti..
Saturday, January 09, 2010
Wednesday, January 06, 2010 I can't face you, that's all. Whenever I do, it hurts. But I was just faking a smile, so you won't see the sadness in me. But if it makes you happy, then I'm okay with it, I guess. It's life anyway. Whatever happens, life still has to go on. Even if it's killing you on the inside. I believe that in love, I have to accept the fact that what makes the person I cared about happy, might on the other hand leave me lonely. I thought I was ready to face all this. But I guess, everything was just happening too fast. Sometimes I wonder, why does this always happen to me? Whenever I fell for a guy, he's always falling for another girl. Whenever I'm falling for that guy and he's into me too, then later he has to leave me. What is wrong with me? After everything that has happened to for the past two months, I don't really smile that much anymore. I start to lock myself in my room. And I stopped taking my medications. What's the use for me to continue eating my meds, if i'm still hurt? So, I'll just leave everything to God and let Him decide. ..... Monday, January 04, 2010 You really think I'm using you, huh? All this while, everything was alright between us. You know me very well. You know that I've never done anything bad to you or your brother. I've never had any of that kind of intentions towards you. You have been there for me. Why would you think that I'm using you? And worst still, you believe them. The ones that almost killed me. I know you're confused right now, and I don't blame you for that. There's a lot that already happened in your life. But still, it's unreasonable for you to be thinking that way. Amirul, you're 19. I'm sure you know how to differeniate which is right, and which is wrong. You know me well, and you know that I wouldn't and would NEVER use you. Think for yourself. About that argument earlier, I don't blame you for that. But I blame those who pretended to be my bestfriend. I just hope that you think carefully about what I said. I don't want to fight with you, cause I know, you mean something to me. WTF. Hope you have a great life ahead. Peace out. I'm dying inside but I won't cry for help for I know you won't be there, all this time you didn't care. Labels: Ignorance |
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