Whenever I do, it hurts. But I was just faking a smile,

so you won't see the sadness in me.

But if it makes you happy, then I'm okay with it, I guess.

It's life anyway. Whatever happens,

life still has to go on.

Even if it's killing you on the inside.

I believe that in love, I have to accept the fact that

what makes the person I cared about happy,

might on the other hand leave me lonely.

I thought I was ready to face all this.

But I guess, everything was just happening too fast.

Sometimes I wonder, why does this always happen to me?

Whenever I fell for a guy, he's always falling for another girl.

Whenever I'm falling for that guy and he's into me too, then later he has to leave me.

What is wrong with me?

After everything that has happened to for the past two months,

I don't really smile that much anymore.

I start to lock myself in my room.

And I stopped taking my medications.

What's the use for me to continue eating my meds, if i'm still hurt?

So, I'll just leave everything to God and let Him decide.

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